19th Birthday

First of all, I wished myself happy birthday ( =) ).
I am 19-year-old girl from now on ( =( ).
It is my last year to be teen (so sad...).

As usual, after blowing candles for 3 cakes, I made my wishes.

First, it is for my family, include my family in blood & family in Christ. I hope all of them will be strong & healthy.
Second, it is for my studies & career. I hope I will become more excellent & brilliant, with a much more smarter brain.
Third, it is for my love & relationship. I hope I can have a boyfriend, a life partner, who will love me more than myself, as soon as possible.


Well, This year is the greatest birthday I had.
It was celebrated in 2 days continuously.
& I was shocked & tricked by them (=\). I never thought I would be caught into their trap since I've known their tricks too well. I should be smarter!


At first, they disappointed me purposely by not celebrating my birthday as grand as Yang's & ThyThy's.
Jes told that they would celebrate with me on the day before, for countdown, because most of them have leader care cell meeting & funeral service on Friday night.
She & Yang asked me to go to church after my class finished. They would celebrate it after P & W practice.
Of course, I was not that obedient. Since I was having boring classes on that day, I needed to have some fun for myself.
So, I kept telling them I was not going, with the excuses of traffic jam & tiring.
Well, it was truth. I was very tired & the traffic made me more sleepy, although Jenny was driving her car.
For paying the price, I have waited for Jamie Jie for 1 & a half hours, because I did not call her when I arrived, for not leaking a flaw to Jes & Yang.
After that, I ended up in sleeping at Chapel under loud music & singing.
Well, I did sleep deeply, but I still could listen to every people very clearly.
When I awoke, QiQi called for early birthday greeting.
She always the earliest ( =) ).
After the practice, I was brought to pasar malam OUG, having my dinner & supper at Steven's corner, with Johnny Gor, Jamie Jie, Yang & Jes The 2 pieces of cakes from Secret Recipe were played by Jes & Yang, more than I ate, though they were my birthday cakes (=.=''').
If Yang & Jes are really be together in future, it is a great thing, but we will be really annoyed by them, because both of them can be philandering publicly (>.<''').
At 12am sharp, birthday greetings were coming via sms.
The greatest birthday greeting I have received, from Onn Yeen Jie, she sang for me through voice mail (=D).
Many people did greet me via facebook too, because of the birthday reminder application (-.-''')


On Friday, I was having English composition class.
It was too bored to have class on a great Friday evening (haiz...).
The lecturer has been late for 45 minutes. Our class was too small, just few people (kesiannya)...
It was raining also. It was hard for me to go back after class. It would be crowded on road.


Well, after class, I was having my usual daily life if there were no activities.
& suddenly, I was shocked when a bunch of people appeared at the window of my computer room, at midnight, while I was online-ing.


Well, it was really surprising!
I never expect my mom would let people to come to my house at that time. She would sure scold me heavily if I did so.


However, I should have noticed it earlier. I knew them too well & I was too clear about their tricks.
Maybe because I was too sleepy, I did not realize there was something wrong.


First, my mom should have gone to sleep since everyone was already went to bed except me. I was taking nap on sofa;
Second, my mom already gave warning to me when there were many cars passed by my house;
Third, Jamie Jie would not come to my house at midnight if there is nothing urgent. & my mom's response was different than usual;
Fourth, my dog has already told me they were there, since she barked non-stop.
Fifth, I should trust my sixth sense, since I sensed that something was gonna happened.


Jes made me so creamy &  sweety. I hate that, although it was fun, because I just had my shower (aaaaarg——).
Johnny Gor always caught in dirty. His white shirt got dirty, although I was the one who was wiped by cream.
& Jes & Yang were starting philandering, played with the cream, although the cake was for me (=.=''').
ThyThy love my keyboard, which worked as piano for me, so much, till did not want to let it go.
Winnie took our messy photos. But it was too ugly for me to take, since I do not like to take photos at home. & her technique was not that good (>.<).


After that, Yang & Jes turned their target to my computer, the SDO game.
Because of them, all of us shifted our attention to the game.


Before they left, they tried to be good with my dog, who was barking at them without tiring.


It was first time for me to discover that people can have fun in my house (-.-''').


Thanks to Jas Jie's blessing, from far far away;
Thanks Jamie Jie, Johny Gor, Yang & Jes, for the prelude on Thursday night;
Thanks Jamie Jie, who leaded the way for Winnie, Johnny Gor, ThyThy, Yang & Jes to come to my house, for last minute surprise;
Thanks Onn Yeen Jie & Leen Yeen, for their dog dog;
Thanks Onn Yeen Jie, for singing birthday song for me via voice mail;
Thanks our gang, who bought me cakes for 2 days, though they were not delicious;
Thanks Amy, for her present;

Thanks Qi Qi, for her have not arrived present (XD);
Thanks my mom, for the birthday cake;
Thanks people who sent birthday greetings via sms;
Thanks people who greeted me via facebook;
Thanks to our God, who created me & brought me to this world!


THANKS EVERYONE!
It was my best birthday for my 19 years!





19 years old—
It is the time for preparing to be an adult;
It is the time to grow up;
It is the time to get up;
I shall not be soft anymore;
I shall not to be useless anymore;
I shall not be serious anymore;
I shall be mature;
I shall be strong;
I shall be proud, for those rich people who looked down at me, I will let you be regretted because of looking down at me.

P/S:
Sorry for Tabi, for not inviting her along for the celebration.

Well, it was not my fault.
I also did not know what they were going to do (-.-).


P/S:
Well, X means a kiss......
It's feminine expression of affection...
But it could also be an evil stamp of hatred...
Sure, it's where a fatal silver arrow a shoots, X marks the target spot......

——Chris Vineyard, Detective Conan


P/S:
Xiao Mei , please do not think too much. He is my sweetheart brother, though he used to nice to me & has given me some sweet memories, but everything has become history now.
Yang, thanks for your courage. I will not disappoint you.


P/S:
Dear, it is the first time & the last time for me to say I love you.
It is no use for me to continue to wait for you, who bring me no result & hurt.
& it is too silly for me to fall in love with people who is unfaithful, who have many girls at one time.
I should not be clapping with one hand anymore...
There is always hope but I do not think that I shall anticipate it for you...

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new year·new life·new look·new image·new me

School holiday on March 2008, I cut my long hair into short hair.


Short hair was starting on trend during that time.
I was trying to have a new short hair look after 17 years of long hair.
Well, almost everyone got shocked at that time, since I never cut my long hair into short before.


After a year, I grew my hair long again, & dyed it after SPM.


Well, I have been thinking it for a year, whether to let it to continue to grow longer & curl it, or cut it short.


Firstly, my mom wanted me to have long hair. Elder people always prefer girl to have long hair (=.=''').
Secondly, guys always like girls with long hair. Dear prefer me to have long hair compared to short hair.
Thirdly, I can look more mature with long hair. I did not want people always think me as secondary student.
Fourthly, I can do any style for my hair for any occasions, like prom or dinner.
Fifthly, I am preparing for my wedding photo (XP). I am planning to get marry at young age if I do have a life partner (XD).


Well, at last, I make it short!
Finally, I chose to cut it.
I rather to have a short hair compared to long hair, at least I do not need to bother it so much.


Thanks to Poh Poh, who brought me to that saloon.
Thanks to that pretty girl, who used 2 hours to cut my hair.


I feel so glad & delighted suddenly.
I have cut my past;
I have cut my sad & bad memories;
I have cut all my love to him;
I have cut all my reluctance;
I have cut the old me.


I am learning to be appreciate now, for everything God has given me, for everything Lord has sacrificed for me;
I am learning to grow up now, since I am going to become adult soon;
I am learning to be more mature now, including behaviour, personality, thinking ways, etc.


I am learning not to be so serious now, since nobody will really serious with me;
I am learning not to care so much for what people thinking about me now, since this is none of my business;
I am learning not to offer so much for anyone else, since no one will appreciate my help.


It is the time to grow up;
It is the time to rise up;
It is the time to get mature.


I am no longer the weak & soft girl anymore.
I will exceed the stronger one day.
I will prove to anyone that my hard work will be paid one day. 


God is the strength of mine.
He is the only one who will appreciate me.
He is the only one who will care for me.

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handbook for 2010

I love it.
It is a good advice, especially for unhealthy people like me (XD).

HEALTH :
1. Drink plenty of water. (I do need)
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar. (wow o.o)
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E ' s——Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy.
5. Make time to pray. (indeed)
6. Play more games. (Sweet =.=''')
7. Read more books than you did in 2009.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. (I am already too quiet >_<)
9. Sleep for 7 hours. (not enough for me XD)
10. Take a 10-30 minute walk daily. And while you walk, smile. (look like a mad girl >.<''')

PERSONALLY :
11. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about. (indeed!!!)
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment. (agree!)
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits. ( yup=) )
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does. (INDEED!!!)
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip. (true)
16. Dream more while you are awake. (what?!)
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need. (Well, I have experienced it for so many times...)
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness. (depend...)
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others. (unless he/she makes me really frustrated)
20. Make peace with your past so it won' t spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you. (true)
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more. (-.-''')
24. You don ' t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. (strongly agree!)

SOCIETY :
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others. (where I can get the money from?)
27. Forgive everyone for everything. (depends...)
28.. Spend time w/ people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6. (what?!)
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day. (it's the clown's job, isn't it?)
30. What other people think of you is none of your business. (STRONGLY AGREE!!!)
31. Your job won ' t take care ofyou when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch. (impossible)

LIFE :
32. Do the right thing! (I wonder what's the right thing to do?)
33. Get rid of anything that isn ' t useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything. (Amen)
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, CONSIDER THINGS FROM EVERY ANGLE, DON'T GIVE UP AND DON'T GIVE IN.
ENJOY LIFE TODAY; YESTERDAY IS GONE AND TOMORROW MAY NEVER COME.
FAMILY AND FRIENDS ARE HIDDEN TREASURES.

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school starting...

11/1/2010, third semester was starting.
I need to go to that stupid school again.


Well, I am having my third semester in first year. I am senior for freshie (=P).


Time passed so fast (haiz...). I have studied in Segi College for half a year already.
Now, I am getting to fit into the college life already. I am glad that I have known some good friends & classmates & schoolmates. Ms. Chantini, Mr. Francis can recognize & remember me well now ( =) ).


I am taking English composition II, management principle, intercultural communication & principle of sociology for this semester.
All are hard subjects for me( =( ).


Firstly, I am not good at writing essays on the spot. I have no idea whenever the lecturer asks us to write an essay on the spot & hand in immediately ( =( ). Moreover, I am good at writing love story or imaginative, but not at argumentative essay or academic composition. That is the reason why I always slow & fail at writing essay during exam ( =( ).


Secondly, Ms Padma has been my lecturer for basic composition I during my first semester. I have known her well. She is nice but strict. We have to do all the assignment perfectly to get marks from her. I feel stress in her class ( =( )


Thirdly, Ms Jamie has been my philosophy class's lecturer. She is much more stricter than Ms Padma & too responsible. She is moody. We need to observe her mood on that day during class. If she is in good mood, she will treat well to us & vise versa. In addition, We have to finish all the assignments & present every presentation in the most perfect way to get marks. She really gives us a lot of assignments & presentations due to the reason to get pass for that particular subject ( =\ ). Her classes always make me stressful & can not sleep well during tests & before the due date of hand in the assignments.


Fourthly, I do not know any theories of business core so I will feel a bit hard to catch up with classmates especially when doing the assignments. I can do business but I cannot study business. I do not know how to apply the theories in order to answer the questions that asked (=\). Mr Lee has taught us a lot of theories of marketing principle, but I could not answer situational questions (=\). Ms Linda teaches a lot of theory of management principle but she can teach until I feel asleep in her class (XP)


Well, I have to face reality after all. Whatever trouble I am facing now, I have to be confident & face up bravely & learn not to escape like last time. If other people can pass through all the difficulties & can have achievement, I can do that too.


GAMBATEH!!!

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what am I according to you?

Who am I according to you?
What am I according to you?


Why you are cool & cold to me?
Which location am I in your heart?
Where are you when I need you most?


How dare you to make sad?


According to you
I'm stupid
I'm useless
I can't do anything right


According to you
I'm difficult
hard to please
forever changing my mind


I'm a mess in a dress
can't show up on time
even if it would save my life


But according to him
I'm beautiful
incredible
he can't get me out of his head


According to him
I'm funny
irresistible
everything he ever wanted


Everything is opposite
I don't feel like stopping it
so baby tell me what I got to lose


He's into me for everything I'm not
according to you


According to you
I'm boring
I'm moody
you can't take me any place


According to you
I suck at telling jokes
cause I always give it away


I'm the girl with the worst attention span
you're the boy who puts up with it


I need to feel appreciated
like I'm not hated
why can't you see me through his eyes
it's too bad you making me decide


According to me
You're stupid
you're useless
You can't do anything right

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