Did you know that, you have become my habit?
Did you know that, I have accustomed to your morning & night greetings?
Did you know that, how I feel unaccustomed when you stop sending messages to me?
Did you know that, you have distracted me successfully from everything I was doing at that moment?
Did you know that, I have been thinking of you during my final exams?
Did you know that, you almost made me to fall in love with you?
Did you ever notice that, how I felt mad, depressed, frustrated, envy just because of you?
"Little Star" has given me a nickname - twinkle, because he said I am cute ( =) ).
So, I named him as "Little Star" because of the song "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star".
& he is getting as shine as a star & made all my sisters, even my sweetheart brothers fancy him.
I could not remember that how I knew him at the beginning.
I started to notice him because he looked like Sam Chew's colleague, Khai Mun Chan. Both of them looked alike except height & both of them are majoring in IT.
We were in astonishment after Through The Roof 3, when he sang so high on stage, made us so amazed. & after that, we have started talking about him.
I still remembered that, he just knew my name when we were in the same apartment in the M.A.D. camp 2009.
There, we started our first conversation.
I met him in church often since after that. Maybe it was the beginning of our fate.
He used to comment on my facebook profile, but we never talk to each other on chatbox before, although we talked to each other in church.
Once, I was too over in replying him comment, he was kindly advise me. It was our first time to chat online.
I gave him my mobile phone number finally at the end of November & he started sending messages to me.
It has been lasted for a month.
We sent messages to each other from morning until night.
He started to join our Chinese gang's gathering often. He even celebrated ThyThy's birthday with us.
After 1 week, I started to doubt our relationship.
We have been sms-ing from day till night everyday.
I have asked opinions from few friends, & they gave me same answer except ThyThy.
After being patient for 2 weeks, I have got an answer from him.
Undoubtedly, my sixth sense was right - he likes me. But, he did not want me to be his couple at the moment. He wanted to start from beginning according to procedures.
Well, we sms-ing as usual from day to night everyday.
I was having sweet talk with him although I have forbidden him from using any sweet talk. He never knew that, I am too good at sweet talk since I have been by those words before.
However, our messages were decreasing every week. He talked lesser to me because he was getting to adapt to his work.
& I was a quiet person, I do not like to chat about people's private stuffs unless he/she talks to me by himself/herself.
& the other reason is, I learned to be careful for not getting hurt. I have learned that guy will not appreciate unless he pays a high price for it.
I have been creating opportunities for him to get closer to me.
Thanks to my honey sisters, for inviting him to join our lunch & supper & dating, we have chance to be together.
I was sitting next to him on purpose, & I was holding his arm on purpose.
& yet, as expected, he did not want me to do that.
He knew that, I have no love feeling to him;
He knew that, he is only my dear brother, since he joined our Chinese gang;
He knew that, how hard was I in communicating with him.
He should know that, we are 2 different kind of people, from 2 different era of world, it would be suffering for me to be together with him;
He should know that, we do not have common topic to break the ice;
He should know that, I am slow in doing things but not in relationship. I will not mind to give it a try in every relationship. & I am not afraid for being hurt because I can be stronger after being hurt.
Eventually, he has stopped greeting me for morning & night at sixth week. He has been being greeted me forcefully after a month.
His reason was, everything has gone too fast & he did not get well-prepared in starting a relationship.
Did you know that, how disappointed was I when you told that you just wanted to be friend with me only?
Did you know that, how disappointed was I when you told me that, every of your acts were just an act of a normal friend?
Did you know that, how disappointed was I, when you were not intend to be together with me?
If that was what you called you like me, you have disappointed me from the very beginning!
6 weeks, it was the best he could stand for me.
Did you know that I feel envy to Winnie, who always have topics to chat with you?
Did you know that I feel jealous to my future sister-in-law, who can be sit together with you?
Did you know that I am in bad mood when girls can approach to you while I cannot?
6 weeks, it was the best he could stand for me.
Did you know that I feel envy to Winnie, who always have topics to chat with you?
Did you know that I feel jealous to my future sister-in-law, who can be sit together with you?
Did you know that I am in bad mood when girls can approach to you while I cannot?
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