He had been confessing his love to me for about 1 year.
& he still said "I love you" to me months ago.
I accepted his love at last, although he is younger than me.
He is caring;
He is kind;
He is considerate;
He is patient;
He is talented;
He is loving.
I was not sure why I accepted him. I had crush on him & a strong feeling towards him suddenly.
I missed him every moment everyday.
I was so looking forward to see him on Sunday.
But, he is just a young boy, without experience at all & never in relationship before.
He would not know, how much I suffering in missing him everyday;
He was not there whenever I needed him so much;
He paid more attention to his studies compared to me;
We could not get very close to each other. I could not hug him whenever I wanted. I could hold his hand only. Because of his parents, sister, coach, pastors, & because we were at church, we were together secretly.
However, he was disappointed me really much.
He just wanted to be friend with me after a week.
He did not want to be in relationship in his age.
He wanted to focus on his studied to fulfill his dream & ambition.
Maybe his parents discovered our relationship, or maybe his studies is much more than anything else, he chose to end our relationship before we even started.
We were 2 different kind of people totally, we were from 2 different era of world, we did not have topics to talk on conversation, we did not understand each other after all.
We could only just be friends. He could be my little brother only.
I missed his smile;
I missed his gentle;
I missed his warm;
I missed his consideration;
I missed his handsome while he is singing.
But, the last thing I could do, is only missing him.
I would not be hurt by same people twice;
I would not fall in love with same people twice;
I would not want to be together with same people twice.
Xiao Zhian, I would not say goodbye, because you did not know how to appreciate.
Xiao Zhian, I would not say goodbye, because you did not know how to appreciate.
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